Warriors Choose Happiness Over Fear
Three years ago I chose Happiness. I chose to focus on health of my Body, Mind and Soul.
Such an easy choice to make.
But when you choose to change your life, even if to make it better, with that change comes very hard decisions. With each decision, comes more decisions.
Since I started my journey towards Happiness, I never thought it would evolve as it has.
With change also comes the feeling of loss, self-doubt. And fear.
I made some very hard and necessary decisions. And sprinkle some unplanned hardships into the mix. I am three years from when I began this journey and am so far from where I was…
And I have found myself unsure of where I am headed.
My job was to motivate, empower and stand-up for those without the ability. But I was killing my Body and my Soul.
Choosing Happiness was necessary.
My Body is stronger but my Mind still flounders.
I used to speak on courage and perseverance. I inspired people. And people hated me for being the one who spoke up. Now I wallow in self-doubt. I feel like an imposter.
I have overcome so much hardship. In my life and in the past three years. Yet, my Mind races and lives in what once was.
That ends now.
I am the new version of me.
I am the warrior who walked away from that toxic career.
I am the warrior who persevered through the largest surgery a plastic surgeon can perform, followed by a second spinal fusion and am now 40lbs lighter and physically stronger.
I am the warrior who stopped drinking a bottle of wine every night.
I am the warrior who chose to end my nearly 20-year marriage, instead of staying dormant and unhappy.
I may not be able to be the executive I once was, but I can use my passion and what I learned in my career professionally and personally to be a role model to other women who silently suffer as I do.
My goal three years ago was to focus on Body, Mind and Soul.
My Body is stronger. My Soul misses the connections. My Mind misses the conversations.
If my story resonates, let’s reconnect. 😊
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